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Hello dear reader. I haven't blogged properly in almost a year, and therefore have deprived you of... well... nothing. Of course it doesn't matter and no one cares but me. I haven't had time to do it, but I also haven't really wanted to. I wanted to at first, thought about it a bit, but was way too busy. Then I didn't care much anymore, thought it was a complete waste of effort. Then later, when I occasionally thought about it again, the thought of blogging seemed difficult because I didn't know what i'd say to start to kick this off again. This past couple of days has seen me with a bit of time to myself and it's been on my mind again.

I like doing it, I like writing because it's cathartic. It sometimes gets me to think more deeply about things than I may do otherwise, to sort out and clarify what I really feel about something. I work it out in my head as I type. My favourite reason to blog, though, is to get down my thoughts about music. I don't apportion as much time speaking to people about music as I do thinking about music (not many sane people do) so it's great to get it down somewhere, to get it out of my head. It's like a conversation with myself. No arguments, only complete agreement that my taste is brilliant and that thinking in minute detail about a record is actually a useful way to spend one's time.

Problem is, I don't have anything specific I want to write about right now. I don't even have anything I necessarily want to listen to right now. I've been shuffling heaps of music insead of listening to whole albums, which I never do. In various ways my life is in limbo right now, waiting, lamenting recent changes, which is probably the cause of this empty feeling. This post is a way to get that first one out of the way and see what follows. Maybe nothing, but that's ok, then i'll know i'm done with this for now.